Mother's Day

I'm not sure what Mother's Day will hold for me this year... We've talked of meeting up with both Moms for a special train ride with brunch in the dining car... Also of hosting here, or going to my (baby) brother's to see how his Easter chicks have grown...

No matter what we do, I'll still be in shock that

 I'm a Mommy. 

You'd think I'd be accustomed to it by now, huh? 

No, I'd really given up on having kids and convinced myself I wasn't meant to have them. I was a "horse show Mom" to others' kids n critters...

Then I met The Farmer...

I am so in awe of the miracle of children and family.

Soooo BLESSED!

I   s t i l l  can't believe it.

No, I'm not saying it's always awesome.

Many days it's awesomely tough.

I have a huge respect for my own fabulously wise, kind and patient Mother now...

I know I've given her a run for her money!

I bought her a card that says; 

"Tantrums, meltdowns, acting out...

Where do they get it? -

Never mind. I think I figured it out." !!!

I'm a natural animal trainer and that both helps and hurts me as a Mom...

I'm consistent and strict and positive and loving.

But I'm also too controlling & bossy.

Way too.

I'm am quite sure that The Lord is shaping me.

I thought I'd learned to "Let go and let God" a long long time ago with my beloved animals...

Clearly I still have LOTS to learn.

Lucky for me I have the two bestest kids in the world (for ME) as teachers!

Thank you, Sarah and Jack, for making me a Mommy.

Each day I am growing and learning right along side you two...

Some days I barely pass.

You are so gracious and forgiving.

You bring me immeasurable joy. 

The time has flown too too fast.

I want to slow down and enjoy who you both are.

Watch who you will become.

Support and guide, but not control.

It's the best journey ever 

(even if I do feel jetlagged 1/2 the time)...

And just like my awesome Mom says,

"You'll ALWAYS be my babies!"