"If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day." — E.B. White

Friday, May 7, 2010

Mother's Day

I'm not sure what Mother's Day will hold for me this year... We've talked of meeting up with both Moms for a special train ride with brunch in the dining car... Also of hosting here, or going to my (baby) brother's to see how his Easter chicks have grown...

No matter what we do, I'll still be in shock that
 I'm a Mommy

You'd think I'd be accustomed to it by now, huh? 
No, I'd really given up on having kids and convinced myself I wasn't meant to have them. I was a "horse show Mom" to others' kids n critters...

Then I met The Farmer...
I am so in awe of the miracle of children and family.
I   s t i l l  can't believe it.
No, I'm not saying it's always awesome.
Many days it's awesomely tough.

I have a huge respect for my own fabulously wise, kind and patient Mother now...
I know I've given her a run for her money!
I bought her a card that says; 
"Tantrums, meltdowns, acting out...
Where do they get it? -
Never mind. I think I figured it out." !!!

I'm a natural animal trainer and that both helps and hurts me as a Mom...
I'm consistent and strict and positive and loving.
But I'm also too controlling & bossy.
Way too.
I'm am quite sure that The Lord is shaping me.
I thought I'd learned to "Let go and let God" a long long time ago with my beloved animals...
Clearly I still have LOTS to learn.
Lucky for me I have the two bestest kids in the world (for ME) as teachers!

Thank you, Sarah and Jack, for making me a Mommy.
Each day I am growing and learning right along side you two...
Some days I barely pass.
You are so gracious and forgiving.
You bring me immeasurable joy. 

The time has flown too too fast.
I want to slow down and enjoy who you both are.
Watch who you will become.
Support and guide, but not control.
It's the best journey ever 
(even if I do feel jetlagged 1/2 the time)...
And just like my awesome Mom says,
"You'll ALWAYS be my babies!"  


Lori said...

You make me misty. It's an amazing and exhausting journey.
Today as I passed by an apple orchard in full bloom. I realized that I won't be the one to take my little baby to pick fresh apples. NO, she will go with her Kindergarten class!!!! I have also come to the realization that we take pictures of the most precious moments so as time goes by we forget the daily struggles and treasure the sweetest. Forever we will reminisce over this very short period of our lives when our children are small and "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy" will be replaced and the "constant arm rubbing" will be lost.
Happy Mothers Day, may we cherish the moments that make us craziest!!!

Glamorous Girl Gone Goofy said...

Wonderful post. I think you are doing great jumping all over the place, cus' girl, that is real life. I thought I would originaly blog about decorating and painting, but my humor is all over the place, so I am blogging all over the place, too.. I guess I will post about what ever gives me the grins at the time.

Thank you for your wonderful comments. Wow, YOU really just warmed my heart and deeply made me feel special. I love finding new friends!